PTSD is what I was diagnosed with this year. I was like,”I have never been to war”. How can I have PTSD. I was told that there are different types of PTSD. My form of PTSD is becoming more and more common than you would think.
So how did I get COMPLEX PTSD? Mine is literally from a life time of abuse and trauma. My dad was a physical abuser but only to my mother. He never hit me only my mom. But my mom on the other hand, would beat me throw me down stairs and sexually molest me.
At the age of 2 is when I remember my abuse starting, I”m sure it was before that but my memories only start at 2. I don’t know if it was good or bad but most of the abuse my mind had blocked out till I was 51. I guess it was too traumatic for my mind to handle then.
I was physically, emotionally and sexually abused by my mother. This stopped at 14 when I started fighting back.
Then at 15 I met my ex husband. We were together for over 40 years and until the last couple years I really didn’t realize that what he was doing to me was emotional abuse. He knew better than to hit me cause I would have whooped him..
PTSD AND ME
Remembering all of my abuse explains a lot about me. I am a very caring and loving person. I will always try to break up a fight. Most of the time I like to be alone even in a crowd, but I have learned that is not how I want to be.
I also have learned that my depression can cause me physical pain. Who would have thought. So now I am also learning not only how to deal with my depression, anxiety and my stress levels which all effect my pain level.. Don’t get me wrong, I do have physical reasons for my pain but my PTSD adds to that pain.
I have found a series that can help you learn to deal with your depression and anxiety, PTSD. I wish I would have found this sooner because i have been struggling with all of these symptoms all of my life.
Do You Suffer From Any of These Symptoms?
- You are always tired, always have low energy and you always struggle to accomplish everything on your daily “to-do” list.
- It’s hard to find the motivation to do anything… including going out with friends or completing tasks
- You feel anxious and worried about little things in life
- Negative thoughts and feelings of anger are often playing themselves in your mind
- You feel restless, irritable and often lash out at the people who are closest to you
- It can be difficult to fall asleep or stay asleep – regardless of how tired you may be
- You can’t concentrate on anything, your mind feels like jelly and you are more forgetful than ever.
- You have headaches, backaches, joint pain, and other physical ailments that you can’t pinpoint the problem and don’t respond to regular treatments
- Some days you feel sad or guilty about the things you haven’t done… and regrets play heavily on your mind.
- Even when there is a room full of people around you… you still feel lonely and often worry that no one really likes you.
- You have problems with your weight and you are starting to feel overwhelmed by your own life.
With this program, you can live a depression-free life. Don’t miss out on this give it a try NOW.
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